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August 29, 2004 Its been 30 minutes and I still cannot come up with anything profound or interesting to say…I’ve ransacked all the thoughts in my mind…it NEVER takes me this long…maybe someone might have guessed it…I might as well break the news…there will be no more neurotic in this blog…I have finally pushed the clouds of negativity and pessimism that constantly shadowed over my head… actually…I’ve gotten a grip over life. Please don’t fall off your chair…it was bound to happen…Laziness and lack of motivation just kept me procrastinating this for so long. If you ask me the reason…I’m as perplexed as you…but ask me how it feels and I’ll say…peaceful…but if you catch me in one of my philosophical moods…I’d take a long hard look at the sky and say He spoke to me and showed me the light…or I’ll have a far away look and quote a passage from a book or a poem and I’ll let you figure out on your own…or I’ll say…suicidal people are usually the happiest before they are about to take the plunge (its true!). To think that my hobby, friend or rather savior that I seeked in my dark and depressing days might be left out in the cold…lonely and confused because I cant write in the absence of painful thoughts…is a strange feeling. I’m finding it hard to write even now but the words are flowing because I searched for something that was distressing me or will probably irritate me later. Will the cost of optimism come with the death of my passion? I don’t know…but I do find it hard to describe the taste of happiness in my mouth…the images of solitude in my eyes…the positivity in my memories and my past…. (12:12 AM) ~`~
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