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August 07, 2004 Life is full of weird experiences…some you anticipate and others shock the living daylights out of you…. I’m dressed up for a presentation. A girl in my class walks over and admiringly tells me I look nice and the highlights in my hair suit my complexion. I smile and look at her up and down just to return the compliment…its too early in the morning to have a conversation. Without hesitation, she plops down next to me and starts yapping about this and that….I wonder if people are working on an invention to make you disappear….they really should! She pokes me to ask if I studied for the quiz today…I shook my head worriedly she tries to give me a crash course. Something did not feel right…something was on my arm…I look down and I see her stroking it…as if it’s the most natural thing to do….I toyed with the idea of moaning and sighing provocatively…and the thought made me giggle…in my head ofcourse. By this time she had stopped and there was an announcement that there would be no class today…I rushed out before the announcer changes his mind…she follows me…literally on my heels. A guy stops me in the hallway inviting me to his concert and she casually puts her arm around me…my mind screams OH MY GOD people are going to think we are best friends…and I feel a hand on my back….why did I wear a low back today? And now she is calmly caressing it…back and forth. The hair on my body are standing… electrocuted… this is too weird…I can’t even laugh about it in my head. This has never happened to me and its insane…what is she trying to do…I stammer an excuse and run as if I have to do something more important than THIS. I hide the rest of the free class…but never alone…in groups…with people who don’t even know me…someone needs to make sense out of this situation. Its time for my second class and I know she’ll be there…I decide to go late…but I’m so lucky that the only empty seat is next to her…I break out into a cold sweat…I think of things that I could say to her if she tries it again… ‘Look, I really really like BOYS!’… ‘If you had a chance would you like to sleep with a man or a woman?’… but what I really wanted to say was ‘Why the hell do you keep touching me?? It fucking gives me the creeps and STAY AWAY!’ Can anyone guess what happened? She kept touching my arm, back and leg for no reason at all and I couldn’t say anything to her! For the first time in my life humor left my side and I was flabbergasted…shocked beyond belief. Why do all the weird things happen to me? (12:38 AM) ~`~
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